Duality?

Time passes and I still don’t understand. The weakness I exhibit abounds while the strength that carries me through the difficult seems to remain. How can I possibly stand as I am, while yet lacking what appears to be focus? Yet when disaster strikes I stand in his strength and exposure doesn’t seem to matter. Time doesn’t seem to matter, only my circumstance.

Am I secretly seeking Daddy as I walk about or am I just fat dumb and happy without need until at once the devil uses my complacency to act up and at once I am reminded from where my strength comes. What a reactionary faith that is, what a situational adherence to the praise of my God. It is that a subtle difference that causes me despair while waiting for salvation. When in reality I need never despair.

What if, What if I truly acted as I do in crisis all the time? How much more would I accomplish. There has never been a circumstance that God was not able to deliver me and my family from and I know he is there for me but what if I walked in that understanding at all times. What if I really believed what I walked in, while in times of crisis? I mean I know how because he delivers me from evil so why not now for instance.

As I listen to peoples difficulties I hear the duality of their positions. Why then can’t I see mine as they occur? What prevents us from discerning the truth of a situation? Why do we allow ourselves a duality?

That is the meat of our faith that is the stuff that makes things shine and become epiphanies and moments of clarity of faith. We all have that in us.

I am convinced that is the cross we are instructed to put on us daily our affirmation of choice in deciding that God isn’t a liar and we are not him and that no matter the enemy he is with us and will take care of us.

It is a choice.

Choose.